I'm not sure what gave you the impression I don't care. I feel terribly for what happened, but I also feel like some of the things you're saying aren't relevant. There were no instructions I ignored, and yes my mistake was clearly trying something I wasn't familiar with, which as a result I would never, ever do again. I didn't come here to ask for anyone to make me feel better or say what I did was fine or excusable, I'm just trying to figure out my options in terms of possibly securing future bookings. I never said I thought any of it was fine or not serious, just that we were lucky it turned out the way it did. I'm not sure how you can comment that you had "less damage" than I caused as you have no idea what the damage was in my case. Your comments are all so unnecessary, I understand this was a colossal mistake and I'm not sure what you're trying to achieve by being the 10th person on here reiterating that. Don't worry, I haven't forgotten.