I actually believe in a God myself and I honestly came to know God more when I left the church than when I was in it. The church is almost a lifestyle for people who are raised in it. The way the church is held is more of a priority than having a relationship with a God. The most important thing about the church is the temple. That is what I was taught as a little girl. If you read anything about masonic rituals there is no way that the temple was ever divine inspiration. I remember the first time I went into the temple I felt nothing. I had not sinned and was actually a good obedient teen. I thought that there was something wrong with me. I couldn't figure out why I could never feel the spirit. I thought I knew what the spirit was when I got a warm feeling. I was able to manipulate myself to feeling the spirit one time when I prayed asking about something I knew was false. If someone tells me that they know something is true because of a feeling they lose credibility with me. Truth for me does not rely on a momentary feeling. It relies on the overall outcome. When I left, I felt free. I felt pure happiness. I felt glad every time I made a conscious good decsion on my own without any one telling me to do it or why I should. I spent hours outside on Sundays instead of in a stuffy room. I felt this connection with an outside force. Years went by and many life experiences and I can say that I have a deep and powerful connection with God. My life is full of light. I see joy in my home. For my TBM gay brother I saw depression. He has nightmares about my parents hating him and dreams about holding a young man's hand in marriage. He stopped eating for a while. He ate so little you could see all his bones. I hardly slept at night because I was afraid of him ending his life. He finally found a young man who loves him. He is the most happy I have seen him in years. They hold hands and treat each other with kindness. He had lost TBM friends. He has lost friends that he loved who he served with. Yeah...I believe truth shows in the outcome of things.