I'm on day 5 I think now, and I've been on day 5 like 50 times. I've lost so many friendships and ruined so many relationships due to alcohol, said not nice things while black out drunk and pushed everyone out of my life. I've been given chance and chance. Everytime I go for it and get into sobriety, i convince myself that i can control it and start drinking. 1 beer limit turns to 3, then 6 and then I'm back to making mistakes and blacking out 5 times a week. Now I'm single again, with s girl who gave me 3 chances and kept coming back to me because she loved me but this time was just the end because what else can she do for someone who keeps making the same mistake. So in my opinion.. in cannot ever drink again. Maybe you are different. I'm at the point where I've lost so much by drinking and had so many shit situations come up, like waking up in a jail cell or on the street with a bottle beside me or at peoples houses I didnt know that it tortures me emotionally when I get drunk and I lose my shit everytime. Its scary and finally at my age I consider myself coming to age by realizing what I did the last 10 years of my life is unacceptable and will only lead to loneliness and destruction. Iwndwyt and I hope you dont risk anything if you're not 100% sure of what you can do. It's not worth it. Trust me.