the ocd: I do know what you pscyh meant but there is no problem with my not doing it for a day or so. there is no overriding compulsion for many of us. Most of us casually and calmly look shit up on google. with a singular focus and intensity- the obsession. but it not full blown obsession. it is not as if we are concerned about penguins or pandas. ( nothing wrong with either of them- they just don't impact our life and if they do , not to the same degree as a pwBP ) . We are interested in what is relevant , significant and important to us , that is meaningful and impactful. We are highly motivated to look for information about an issue that is incredibly important to us. Which is not ocd. It would of course, depend on the patient's disclosure and how their focus of intense research was impacting them. so there is always room there.

I took a different route as google wasn't around until later. So back for another degree at university...lol..

there is something known as need for knowledge. I decided that I needed to know about this stuff as while I have emotions etc and did experience a bizarre childhood and I am weird, I am weird in a different way than a pwborderline personality. I needed to know what the hell is going on . lol.

There is a wide variety of responses from the recipients of their malevolence. some are more reflective, some less, some are more self aware, some less, some have issues, some have less or fewer. It's been a hell of a trip for everyone of us. that's for sure.

R.