No, honestly everything is the same yet chaotic. No therapist and no meds except for the depression ones hiding in the back of the medicine cabinet that I stopped taking a looong time ago. It's been quite some time since ive seen my therapist or psychiatrist and I do miss my therapist. Kind of hard to play happy normal girl if I show up with cuts on my arm and asking to see my therapist. My savings account is also a little tight.

I'm sorry if this is weird but it seriously brightens my day when I see you have replied to me. I feel like I can honestly count on you to make me feel better. You're always there and you actually remember me and I appreciate it more than you'll ever know. Thank you for thinking about me

Yes I have two best friends I just can't get past the anxiety of opening up. I don't want them to know how fucked up I am and my sadness. They already see the giants scars on my arm/shoulder and know I've been in a hospital. I like to think of my friends as an escape and happiness so I don't think I ever want to spoil that by adding my sadness.