Third day clean almost over.

I stopped letting myself play my favorites until I could go clean. I have noticed that smoking while playing made me associate games with getting high so every time I played I'd want to smoke and gaming would just be boring. It's true, it wont be as fun in some aspects, but not smoking makes me feel more and remember more. So I can actually get into the game later into being sober. But coming out of it, breaking the habit and wanting to play has been a bad mix. It helped me to not associate games with smoking by just separating the two best I could before quitting. Not letting myself smoke where I play, setting a time I could smoke, like if I smoked a j, I couldn't smoke until at least two hours later. Sometimes I just chain smoked while playing. I actually found that I played very little when smoking because I'd get so distracted by it. Like every 30 min I got a craving because even as a smoker, a part of me was still bored by gaming. Gaming is life to me though, so its confusing, but really I just realized that I wanted more out of life than sitting around playing games all day. I was restless and I subdued it with smoking. You just gotta find a way to curb or satisfy that restlessness so you can still enjoy what you like most.

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