these i think deserve their own post:

-knowing how to get home walk home by foot from anywhere within a 10 mile radius of my place. and a fear of being left stranded if i’m taken anywhere outside of it by and for someone else. like getting picked up by a friend and going 20 miles away. because i was forgotten to be picked up so many times.

-this one is really fucked up: i have a really odd obsession with the odors that come from my lady bits and smelling it and anything near it through various stages of uncleanliness. like i can describe the smell of my cooter after i haven’t bathed on the 9th day of my period. i thiiiiiink it’s because i was so embarrassed to ask for pads that i resorted to reusing them when i was younger. liiiiiiiiike.

i need to hit the bongerong real hard after this. fuuuuuuuuuck.