Nothing anyone here says is going to be worse punishment than just being you is.

So why do you come here to lick boots and prostrate yourself in front of a fat demented rapist?

Isn't your life already shitty enough? Have you thought about going outside and being a human being at all?

Because this is pathetic... I guess some get off on impotence though.

But you do daddies bidding don't you random Nazi loser #7372781

So special and unique I bet your identity is so solid and not at all based on what anime you watch and the website you get your talking points from.

Get professional help, only God can save you if you can't pull yourself out of this dive. I guess being a generic bad guy gets you enough emotional support to let you sleep at night though