Those who have been suicidal, what saved you? Is it worth it to stay alive? Hows your life today?

My mum. I'd hate to have her go through that. When she passes I dont know what I'll do. She is my everything. I love her with all my heart. I dont have a gf or love interest. School is stressful and hard and i have anxiety attacks. This started last year when my grandmother died. I hate to see my mother upset. But this year it increased. As school was getting harder. Then in March my cat, my bestfriend for two years straight ran away and my grandfather died the same week. I miss my cat. I miss him so much. I miss him so much. I miss him so much. I cry every day even though its been 3 months. My sister saw i was upset she just says "we all know hes dead your the only one who thinks hes still alive", she even pretends to be him. She meows at the door to make me think that its him. She gets my hopes up. My mum on the other hand just hugs me and lets me cry on her shoulder. The only things keeping me from ending it are my religion as it doesnt allow it, my mum (as she had polio as a child and she still was able to raise four kids even though it must've bern hard for her. Shes 50+ and still takes care of us) and the slither of hope that my cat will come back.

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