My dad killed himself in September, and my mum now has some money from life insurance. My half brother also lost his dad from a heart attack and a young age, and I can tell you, I would give every material possession I have to have my dad back, and so would my brother. The amount of pain I’ve experienced over the last few months has been immeasurable. A lot of the pain comes from the things my dad will miss in my life: seeing me graduate, getting married, holding my kid in his arms. Those memories are priceless. I also know my mum feels like she’s had her future stolen from her.

I can’t understand what it must be like for you to be depressed and wanting to die, but I do know that help is available for you: get a therapist, work through these issues, and I’m sure your loved ones will be there to support you. Be there for your child, and your wife, and make memories. My dad was depressed, didn’t get help and now his loved ones lives are changed for the worse. So much pain could have been avoided, so please be there for your family, but also for yourself.