Honestly I sort of stayed away from it for a while after high school. I went through some pretty bad sleep paralysis streaks during my senior year. Eventually I started just trying to turn off as I fell asleep, instead of thinking, so I could avoid being awake when my dreams started. But by then, I was involuntarily starting to astral project (I don't know if that's the right term, but it would look like I was a ghost floating up out of myself) when I fell asleep.

I didn't understand any of it, and it would really fuckin freak me out when no one knew what I was talking about. I was also getting stuck in my dreams. That sucked a lot too. Now I'm older and I've gotten over most of the experiences that scared the shit out of me. I've started to stop resisting what I'd call "falling asleep consciously". Now things are picking up again. So far it's just been fun stuff like huge parties and dinners with celebrities and romantic going after the princess stuff haha. No heavy stuff that messes with me throughout not ing and next day. Not yet anyway.

I need to apologize to you all for my poor grammar and run on sentences. I'm very sorry...and I have no excuse. Anyway, I've been like turning off lights and shutting doors and trying all these cliche things to prove to myself it's a dream when they start because I've just been sure right away lately when them, but everything always works normal. I end up just not taking over until I'm able to seek out the slightest perception of my body. Sometimes it wakes me up, but I usually go right back into them if they were good enough to still be thinking about. I don't know how else to better test a dream once I'm on to it. Out of practice now that I'm embracing them again, and I end up wasting a good portion of them not convinced I'm dreaming. Everything works because I know it will until I take a leap of faith. I definitely feel real weird admitting this stuff and I'm probably crazy. It's really weird actually reading myself say these things.