What an extremely callous and ignorant move.

This kind of thing should have happened after my dad died two years ago but I left all the paperwork to my mom and brother. I don't know what I'll do if anything happens to either of them and as we get older, health scares and stuff only get more frequent :(.

I wish I had people to share any of my life events wit, friends, extend fam etc. It's hard for me to interface with others beyond a certain point and I can't open up because I'll just end up upsetting them, if I show anyone the extent of my hurt.

Grief scares and discomfits most people. I recently found out that a previously close family friend doesn't want to talk to us anymore, after my mother reached out to him. My father died in a foreign country, my mother and bro were gone to take care of all the coroner's report (it was a suicide), police reports, funeral arrangements etc and I was back home because I couldn't deal and was in a precarious position myself. So I get a call from this family friend and keep in mind, I never cried openly after I heard the news, not even in front of my mom and bro. So a combination of stress, nerves and hearing a familiar voice made me break down like a child over the phone and that was that I guess. He didn't know what to say and he felt guilty for not seeing the signs my father had exhibited prior to his death. We're all in tiny pockets of grief that gets a little more numb and more distant each day as other things we distract ourselves with occupy more of our attention. So I am the person who scared someone else with my grief and I've learned my lesson, crying happens in solitude, rarely. After a few months of someone's death, it just feels like they left your house or life and moved to a country with no intention of reaching out to you again. And come on, how many alive people have we lost like that? What difference does it make?