Throw away acc- I was raped by my long term partner (he was my love and my Dom for 7 years) I used our safe word over and over, I did everything I could to make him hear me but he continued. I loved him and trusted him more than anyone else in the world and he destroyed that. I still don't know why it happened, I still don't understand what changed, I still remember that confused inner monologue, one part saying its ok because he loves me and he'd never hurt me like that and the other that just knows because it feels completely different, it feels so wrong. I was physically hurt but my god did he break my heart that day...that hurt, total betrayal... the sheer and utter heartbreak. I would have done anything for him, I loved him so deeply..part of me still does