Time to unload. What do you want to just get off your chest?

I have an almost 18 month old daughter. I never wanted kids but I love my wife and was open to exploring a new adventure with her, so we started trying. I love my wife and daughter. When I get home from work at 2:00 am and I'm tired or grumpy, I see them both sleeping peacefully and it makes me feel better.

But this world is total shit. People are ugly to each other. Most everyone I meet seems like they're only out to get theirs and step on anyone who gets in their way. I rarely see or experience altruism or compassion. Politicians are corrupt liars. The media is just a massive manipulation machine. People are dying in other countries by the thousands over total bullshit. Humanity is mostly horrible and this is something that has always given me great dis-ease.

Before I had a wife and kids and was just a lonely 20 something dude, I always had suicide as a backup plan. If all the shit in the world got to be too much to bear, I could just punch out no problem. But now that I have a family of my own I would never do that. But raising an innocent little kid and seeing the joy in her eyes every day also makes me a little bit sad, because humans have turned this world to shit and somehow I have to help her learn how to be a person in it.

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