Chronic dropout here as well. Growing up school was the most important thing in life according to my mother (a college dropout). I was always passable but usually struggled and rarely excelled. Had sever anxiety my entire life although I didn't understand that until much later in life (32 now) and severe depression for HS onward. I always felt like an alien/outsider, like I was always pretending to be a person. My mother pushed me to go to college and I failed miserably. She pushed me back again and I failed again. And by failing I don't meant I flunked the classes, I just stopped going. I would leave in the morning for class but usually just end up reading in the park or a cafe. I eventually was able to complete a two year technical course but by then my relationship with my mother was reaching a breaking point.

I eventually got a decent job but after a few year I was incredibly burnt out and on the verge of suicide. I quit and spent the next two years in a depression fog and am only now realizing that I very likely have Aspergers/ASD.

If I could go back in time to when I was your age and tell myself one thing it would be "fuck everyone and everything and get your head straight and figure yourself out and worry about jobs and bullshit afterwards." Because after years of flailing Im so fucking burnt out I just want my life to be over.