You need to tell her where you are at. Being rejected is hurtful to you and so from now on you will not put yourself in a place to be rejected. You will not ask for sex.

And why exactly does he need to tell her that? In order to look even more pathetic to her than he already does? "Honey, from now on I will not be begging you for sex..."

If anything, OP has made the wrong choice to accept something that he knows is actually pretty much unacceptable. If he really accepted it, there would be no feeling mad at anyone. He "chose" to accept not initiating again, but in fact this is a fake choice. The real choice is to still expect it and do it, to still get mad at the rejection he promised himself he won't be getting (a false promise - a lie to himself). That's like telling yourself "Okay, I accept being vegetarian from now on" and then you go to a steakhouse for lunch. Clearly the decision of such a person is either delusion or hypocrisy.

And always with dodging the question - why are you still with her? What exactly makes it all right for you? I guess she must be a cooking goddess or something to make up for the utter misery in your bed, surely! It is a perfectly valid question - does watching TV with her on the couch really make up for the lack in your relationship? What exactly is it about her that it makes it okay for you to delude yourself that you can (and want!!) to live in a sexless relationship? What, you think you can't do any better than to be with her? You think she will change? You blindly believe that there is something more to your relationship than the constant toying and playing games? She really loves you, but having a proper kiss is asking too much. Come on, a little honesty here! What is it about this woman that you can't live without, and that is actually better than sex, literally, that makes you stay with her? There must be something?