“Discuss it with the counselor but be happy at home”

Please listen to this advice, OP. I know it hurts to put on a fake smile and act like everything is ok, but it’s the safest option. Keep him calm and complacent and plan your escape. You need a lawyer to protect your rights to custody. He is not thinking as kindly as you are, and his past behavior demonstrates that. Once he realizes he’s not going to be able to keep you- that mask will also fall and he will likely be vicious, ruthless, and cruel.

Pretend things are looking up and do not let him be privy to any issues. When I was planning my escape I had to do something similar for the first phase.

You deserve a relationship where you can express your emotions. Clearly you do not have that, so you need to keep yourself and your emotions safe. This man is not a partner, he’s not a friend, he doesn’t care. He’s using this against you and that is terrifying. Do not trust this man. I know you want to, I know he’s had good moments, I know you think he can change, I know you want him to change, I know you want him to have your best intentions, but he does not. Yes I know how hard that is to hear and realize. Yes I know it hurts. I’m sorry :( But you need to put yourself first now and for forever and protect yourself, physically, emotionally, and legally. That starts TODAY. That started when you went to counseling, which is also why it’s worrisome he’s using what you learned there against you.

It is wrong he’s telling people. He’s making your private emotions a spectacle for all to see. And that is wrong. Please protect yourself.