Tonight's the last night I cry. I'm letting things go for good now.

Yeah, casual dating and hookups just aren't for me. I'm just going to give it time and fall in love with someone new, meaningless sex is just a band-aid on an open wound. I've learned a lot from this past relationship and am hopeful about the future, and how things will go with my future partner.

I feel like a new person after all this physically and mentally, and I am going to give it my all next time. But I'm not going to ever try to force things with someone again, I feel guilty, gross, embarrassed and worthless after I do it. I know I have value too, and I just look stupid throwing myself down on my knees for someone repeatedly after already being rejected more than thrice.

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