Too much of a pussy to kill myself

Same. I wish 14 year old me had made better calculations. I wish that I didn't survive over a decade longer of this hellscape where things somehow always find a way of getting worse.

Ugh it's not even that I am scared to do it. People just feel the need to remind me that I should feel guilty about it. If suicide is selfish, isn't asking a person to continue suffering even more selfish? "Don't kill yourself! Stay alive and continue to fail at life while suffering endlessly instead. It means so much to me, and I just love to know that you are alive and suffering." Like fuck, if you cared so much why the hell did you abuse me my entire goddamn life relentlessly to the point of making me disabled?

Families are wonderful...NOT!

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