ok my mom died a few weeks ago and this post confirmed my fears about doing acid again,

I think i have some hidden guilt because I didnt show her enough love. I suspect a bad trip could happen where I see my mom criticize me for being a bad son, or something. Or a good trip where she says I don't need to feel bad, either one could happen

but I won't have any guilt about doing acid. one time my mom found my drug stash and she only took the MDMA but left the LSD, because she may have been aware that it had benefits for me. i started making good college grades because of LSD and she knew that

Either way I think i need LSD to help me heal social skills so i can make friends to help fill void.