Thanks for the reply, but unless I'm seriously depressed or something, I'm not sure it applies. I'm middle aged and really don't like that much and whilst there's ennui, I'm fairly sure it's not fomo. I want a bigger place to live but am reconciled to even 20+ years of saving it being fuck all in a big ship compared to house prices in Oxford. I'm good at some things and just because I have the disposable income and for the challenge I've done new things. I have degrees in and won awards for the things I do do. Alas, I just don't really care for them. There are things I've bonded with and care about (my pets for instance) but I'm not about to collect toothless cats or open a hoarded computer parts museum.