I get it... my therapist is this super pretty swiss girl with blonde curls and she is so nice, always trying to make me smile and stuff.

I'm mute so I communicate with a tablet. She doesn't know I'm gay.

But yeah I fantasise about her. I'm really submissive and I just want her to domme the fuck out of me. I feel like if she'd just domme me and make love to me, I might be able to open up to her.

That obviously can't happen but ugh I just wish my therapist was less nice and less sexy and I don't even know. It's stupid and unfair but part of me blames her for being so nice to me. I just wish she'd be a bitch so I can hate her.

I also noticed she doesn't have a wedding ring even though she must be in her 30s and it's pathetic but it made me happy that it's possible she's not taken.

I feel doubly bad because I actually have a girlfriend and we're both poly and she knows how I feel but I feel bad because I am basically in therapy for her, and I feel like I'm screwing things up by letting my sexuality and submissiveness get in the way of my mental health.

I'm jealous of her because her therapist is not that attractive, has a sort of brusque no-bullshit manner about her, has a wedding ring, and I wish she could be my therapist because I'm not attracted to her and I feel like it'd be more productive.

I feel your pain though. It's confusing as hell and I am lucky we're poly and I can talk to my girlfriend about it otherwise I'd be struggling with the same guilty you have.

You shouldn't feel bad about it though, she is completely professional, nothing is ever going to come of it. I know it's about YOUR feelings but maybe you're a tiny bit poly inside too or something, for me it's possible to love multiple women and feel no less for them each because of it, as long as you don't step outside the boundaries of your relationship you are not cheating.

Plus heaps of people get low key crushes when they are already in relationships, and don't talk about it or act on it. It's a common thing. Maybe your girlfriend even had one or will have one and you'll never know.

I really do try to stop myself thinking of my therapist the way I do but it's so hard being in close proximity to a woman who seems so caring and friendly and like... maternal towards me almost. It's hard to stifle those thoughts. I'm fucking terrified of her too. FML.

Best of luck... if you figure out how to stop the feelings please tell me...