Well it's not really a choice (at least for me). For example you wouldn't ask a gay person normally why they are gay if they get so much hate, and such from it. It's because they don't have a choice. They are attracted to who they are attracted to. I started getting strong instinctual desires to want to have and carry my own child. Obviously that isn't possible for me, but I generally had all of the same instincts, and mannerisms of girls I was around. Tried my best to get rid of those feelings, but they only got worse and worse. There was no amount of therapy, pills, or anything that could take away my need to be a girl.

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And generally there is no price I would pay (outside of hurting another being) to have been born a cis women. It's hard for people to understand, but the goal is to become a women in order to be able to live life. Being your self is the tool in order to have goals/achieve them, not just the end goal itself. I'm attracted to every single part of being a women, and not just the good stuff. I need the bad as much as the good. From physical, mental, and social aspects I value you them all the same.

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The periods, the cramps, the discrimination, the emotional problems, etc. All of which I could live with if it meant I got to be myself. I'm sure many other would agree that they would go through a lot more, and a lot worse in order to be normal cis women.

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I'm no expert and I'm pretty young, and new to hrt, but this is just how I felt since I was a teen like 4 years ago.