Done, is it? Because I don't think it is. I've been looking for a way out for years now.

I'm not sure if the pain lessened or I've learned to live with it, but I've kept going. Even slow progress is progress, no? I figure I don't have long so might as well do what I want to do. And if I fail, so what, I'll just kill myself. But I'm a lazy bum when it comes to fulfilling dreams that might fail. So, it's been a few years and I'm in no hurry to go back to the mud.

This doesn't have to be the end for you. Finding a reason to keep going is a very personal thing and your life, no matter how much it hurts right now is up to you.

What I can do is try to be your friend, if that would be okay. If you want to talk about movies, books, games, music, whatever, I'm happy to make a new penpal.

Hope you keep going.