I feel on the brink myself. I had planned on killing myself 10+ years ago (after my father had taken his own life & my engagement fell apart) the only thing that kept me going is my dog (a labrador collie cross) but now 8+ years later I find myself contemplating the same thing now.. I don't know where to post. I don't know where to turn. I'm from Ireland and I feel my relationship now is falling apart, my dog is in poor health, I lost my job and I'm unemployed and my partner is giving me a hard time about it. Me and my mother stopped speaking 6 months ago and my sisters have there own problems going on... I've one good friend who's very occupied with his own life (a wife, 2 small kids & a morgage) my other close friends are my partners brothers who I can't vent to about anything.. I feel like I've been totally isolated by my partner who didn't like any of my friends back when we met. My partner has two kids who i met nearly 9 years ago, her eldest is 16 and not a nice person, only recently we found ketamine in his bedroom, and we've taken years of abuse from him, the 2nd is 14 and I have such a great relationship with him, he's a very kind, loving, relaxed lad, I feel like we're quite alike. But nothing seems to fulfill me. I feel like I'm not myself, like I'm a shell, or a fake... I only joined reddit tonight to post this in the hope I'll have some clarity from some poster.. I didn't know how to post a topic (sorry)