In the 21st century, you have options. If it was too late for an abortion, then you could've given him up for adoption.

He was born, but your abusive behavior has probably lowered his IQ or has affected his health later in life.

What you did isn't different then child abuse. It's not much different then locking a child in a room and waiting for it to starve.

I will be honest -- you are a terrible human being. A broken and failed mother. Completely defunct and a true testament to the ugliness and darkness of humanity.

Depression and yearning for your old life? Normal. Trying to injure your unborn child? Trying to induce a late stage abortion as opposed to adoption? Disgusting is too kind of a word.

I feel so much pity for your son -- to know that he has a mother like you. The most productive day of his life will be when he gets away from you.

You should give him up for adoption now -- because your complete lack of empathy makes it obvious that you are and will always be a terrible parent.

And to all the redditors offering this woman support? It's completely unwarranted. Any decent human would try and have a regular pregnancy, and give the child up for adoption. OP is basically saying -- boo hoo my life is hard, so i severely abused a vulnerable individual for 9 months -- as if that is normal or justified at all? OP is human garbage.

Furthermore, OP is astoundingly STUPID. A difficult or complicated pregnancy can kill the pregnant mother as well. But she's probably too defunct to understand that.