If you want to be with a woman do so. If i had the desire i would...then at least i wouldnt have to deal with the cruel unempathetic men im used to dating. No you're not crazy. It took me a long time to stop crying during sex (they never cared of course), then it took a lot longer for me to stop being a "starfish", then a bit longer to learn to listen to how my body wants to move, and then how to move it in such a way to orgasm during sex...only for a guy to take that away simply by telling me i wasnt moving right. Well it was good enough to get him off 5 times a day but i guess it's better when i dont have a chance at enjoying it. Still havnt gotten it back it's been a few years. Oh and the guys who refuse to use lube or foreplay even when im bleeding from lack of and my gyno tells me to. Hey male who's supposed to care for me, when im pleasing you can you please do this to make sure im not getting injured? No? Okay let me lacerate my throat for you and you tell me about the other women who are so much better than me. Oh...she silently cries herself to sleep. Crazy girl. Men are so much more connected to reality. What kind of crazy female would want lube when she could just take it and bleed after to not deflate the illusion of his ego by her biological imperatives.