dude. I was like reading about myself. this can't be real.
you have skype? like. You think, as from my experience, like an entity that I would call a perfect definition of what I see myself as in my head with all my thoughts similar or just like this one. calling it the closest point of what my definition of myself is to what I am/how it feels right when it comes down to my decision and picking a side.
I've known people that I can feel are bad from the start, keep my distance, but maintain a good relationship if im stuck being around them and a couple years later see them fall into my first impression system
Wanna know why?
The craziest thing is, a lot of people are unaware of their badness.
My thought is extremely primitive, as I never thought about thinking so deep about what you're saying. Never heard that thought in any way, hence, proving my genuine surprise of finding this type of person online.
I'm 23 now.
Same here!
I read yesterday that there's 90% chance to meet someone that's like you. And there are about 6 people in the world who look like you (hence, thoughts should be like mine too (as if)because judging someone from outside (book by it's cover) is what I would would ever need to survive. the information I obtain about the situation to survive with all my senses acting in unison like a team and therefore always win. Like, I believe that I go so deep in my own thoughts that I can overcome anything? Like a perfect surviving mechanism. But v2.0.1. Like, i'm not animal anymore because I can get pleasure from it and everyone's happy? Like. only dolphins from all the animals get pleasure for fun, they also rape and do other nasty human things to each other. The definition of human.
That's how I see you too, by the way, because you've came up with it and I never heard it, and therefore noone else even have thought of it before you, cuz I tend to drive people into an uncomprehensive oblivion (they start to think I'm crazy) when I'm explaining to them the most primitive ideas I consider primitive. And yet they act like they know they will be happy after what they plan to. Like, they don't report they actions to some "main fail in Universe mega/god PC" is fucked up and they just tend to overbent the situation. Like I'm probably doing right now according to everyone around me.
how could you ultimately choices that are good for yourself and everyone else? And this person could play good forever, it's part of their game their unaware of, but that one time.. you know.
like... I have nothing to say but. YES. like. YOU SAID IT RIGHT THERE. I don't understand why people can't do it. The THE definition of the question that drives my existance in every possible direction I try to expand/evolve in.
I've known people that I meet and I know they're great. See them make mistakes, even if they're big and awful, but still keep shining that radiance of a worthwhile individual. I never put a wall to them and always see them bounce back, usually better than they were.
dude. I want to meet you. Your thoughts can't be real. This is unexpectedly new to me right now.
I know my intentions,
YES! The intentions is all that matters you need to determine in a person to see whether what you both about to do is going to bring you both happiness. Like you have a choice to help a mafia boss that's doing something illegal through your legal things. Like a phone company, for instance. You work there and are given a bribe of 1000$ to pull someone out of a phone, like, trace back the call. You could be scared and rationalize a bribe against your "consciousness". Like, is it good or bad. But only if you're afraid of someone or something is when you start doing it. But what there is to be afraid of at all? Just because his behaviour doesn't deviate from those bad examples you had before, doesn't mean that he's just like them. And you wearily trust this person as if what he/she says is true. You keep to his every word and act like he/she never did what you think he/she did before. And as if there is no gain for you either. We need to be like that to be able to trust each other. Just a universal internal definition of humanity and what is to be human - means. So even if you do "bad" at that moment and refuse the mob boss or fuck him off, you wouldn't be afraid to die, because you could explain why you're not afraid of him. Like how primitive the though of risk is here in this moment. "I'm working in a phone company with 10,000 employees. In this office alone there are 500 people right now. You really think I would ever consider myself special in this environment to be afraid to die? So fuck you and all your money. You can't buy me." and turn around and keep working. Or look at him for the approval if you want to challange him more even if he'd otherwise would be a little amazed by the fact that someone would ever dear to speak to him like this. Like the misery this lad is in (that's how ego talks from "atop of everyone") I would believe him straight up. Too honest. Believes himself too much.
And therefore I never met anyone who digs this shit so deeply that they always find a solution to every situation at any given point in time, cuz you believe in what you believe more than the person near you. Like, you know what to do before doing it.
That's why we should meet and plan a clever chain of events we gon pull off only by improvising, because of we both knowing our intentions are clear. (but doesn't it only happens if you not plant it? Like, you never know before it happens? Like, memory is just a toolBOX we use to survive, therefore, WE as in CONSCIOUSNES/HUMANS/HOMO SAPIENS are not our brains. We're not our body or anything that surrounds us or resembles our understanding of life. We go so beyond that that there's no point in making a conflict at all. It's just so evolutionary much more beneficial to both of us to accept what I did last (and aparently you too - if you understood everything I wrote before). I'm risking right now and giving you the most profound description of what I am. Like. Assuming you'd understand me and giving you the permission to judge me by my cover. Genuine upfront. Otherwise how will you find someone valuable and know he/she is valuable if you haven't even defined your own thuoght about what happiness means. As aparently it's the ultimate pleasure a spirit/consciousnes can get in human body. And we're all after it by asking this infinite question "What's the meaning of it all?" in some earlier versions of this thought to "why the hell people are doing it?" The ultimate driving force of human or human+nature=god (if you prefer) is this ultimate question we all are thinking about on some level under different names.