Hi all. Some triggers here.

I'm not sure where to post this but I just need to tell someone. I just found out my husband has been sharing details of our hcg tests with our in laws. Including the one from Monday. and the last one(s) from the summer that ended in a CP.

I don't know how to deal with this information. Literally the only thing I was looking forward and that I was clinging to was announcing to both sets of parents once we felt more certain after second beta or after the first scan and I feel absolutely betrayed.

I am barely letting myself feel hopeful and I keep having panic attacks about HCG tests given our history and meanwhile happy go lucky husband is apparently telling anyone who asks.

I am hovering between livid and devastated. I asked him what else he's been sharing about my uterus and whether he also told them about how I bled for 3 weeks on and off during my CP and how I had contractions on and off one of the last days of the bleeding and he said no.

I'm a really private person and only told one friend about the miscarriage. Well that and reddit but this is anonymous...