Thank you.

I always hold onto that idea, that I'm only young and there's so many different paths I can take in life and there's other ways I can incorporate religion, or just being a decent human being, into my life and possibly help other people.

I'm just stubborn and controlling to a fault. And I find it hard to change my mind and go a different direction because once I want to do something or I'm fixated on a certain goal it's hard for me to consider other options or change my mind or "drop it".

But at least I can still meet with my priest. I can still read my Bible and incorporate religion in my life. And I'm sure he will help guide me in the right direction whether that's priesthood or not.

I just need to give up that control...which is hard. I hate to feel powerless or like what I want doesn't matter. Or that I can't do something that I know I should be able to do.