Yes he turned out to have MS, and a lesion in his brain (the emotional part) Caused his depression partly. Whenever he is with me he tries to be kind, but he can’t be caring. He really lost himself. He was happy with the diagnosis of MS though, because it proved to him that he wasn’t going crazy.

He isn’t using, i am very sure of it. He has always been VERY much against alcohol, drugs and especially smoking. Also his parents are very involved and trying to help him so that wouldn’t make any sense. He is really trying to get better, he is exercising, trying new hobbies, sleeping schedule, eating healthy with his friend. but idk, he acts different with different persons.

I tried to talk to him, but all he could say is that he is very sorry and that he is just empty and doesn’t care. I know that is because of his depression, but i really don’t see an end to it anymore... He is still very awkward around me and I feel like he is protecting me from himself, i just don’t know anymore.

I keep seeing his face when i asked him to go to the zoo with me and he was like; ‘why? There are so many other guys that would love to go with you. I am not nice’ and i was like; ‘but i want to go with you...’ and that almost made him cry. He really hates himself, and i can’t stop it

Also; thank you for the long response, i appreciate it.