Gave me a flashback to when I was crossing the boarder with a decent amount of belongings including my rats and cat(rats don’t live long I wanted them with me also like no animal lives long enough I wanted to spend the time with all of them) so the boarder patrol called me in for like four and a half hours and basically interrogated me went through my very personal convos (for like, a really long time so some very private things were seen) with my fiancé (whom I was going to stay with for a few months) the guy asked about my meds and I said they were because I had anxiety and he literally, with the exact inflection you imagine, said “of course you do.” And at some point (I really don’t remember because I was so overwhelmed and was crying for part of it, unintentionally) one of the guys that checks the cars came in and said right in front of me “there mice in the car” with the most condescending, lack of empathy and understanding inflection ever, but luckily the main thing that comes to my head with that is, “no, they are rats you f*cking idiot”. There was an insane amount of inhumanity (acting like I was some kind of found guilty criminal) and disregard for emotions that day, so while the general public feels some unease with the authority of border patrol, I have ptsd and dread crossing the border again despite having to multiple times because of my fiancé. Also for some extra context I obviously am not trying to just immigrate without the paper work, I want to be able to go back and forth to visit my family and his wherever we end up living and since we haven’t gotten immigration done obv I don’t want to be banned, I was not doing anything wrong while they treated me like I was (and yes I understand the things I was travelling with would’ve made them question, they did not act like humane authority figures at all, and they intimidated a young person and invaded her privacy for no real reason, and for any person that just seems like a very large misconduct)