The choice is yours so I am not going to sway you one way or the other, but I can try to clear up some things you addressed based on my own experience. The baby is probably fine even despite the five drinks and the cream.

I was in a similar situation a long time ago. My bf actually wanted the baby very badly but he completely changed his mind in the last month. So what I am saying is, you don’t know whether your bf will be in this child’s life or not. He may say he won’t but then he will or vice verse. He might turn out to be the best dad in the world or completely absent. This might change multiple times in the kids life.

My ex didn’t want anything to do with the baby, we broke up, but two years later he changed his mind again and the last five years he has been literally the best father ever and he helps me in all areas of my life.

I am, still single though. My life can be hard however the child also matured me. Prior to having the baby I had no direction and did not even graduate high school. Once the baby was born, I realized this was silly and now I have a BA, MS and PHd. I’m pretty certain that I would not have went back to school if I never became pregnant.

I don’t know what you should do. You are making a decision based on a lot of unknown factors. I can only tell you what happened when I was in a similar situation.