***** off.

You believe that your gun is your only means, that means you're taking the easy way out. You plan on killing yourself without pain.

Um, excuse you, mr high horse. I've attempted multiple times, sing different methods, and some were most certainly not painless. Don't assume jack didly squat. I'm using a gun not because it's painless, but because it's literally the most lethal thing there is. I mean, yeah, I could hang,but too many things go wrong. Too many ways to survive, or be found, or disabled.....guns are like, one try one kill, assuming you know what you're doing.

Seems like you're just gambling on a dream if you ask me

Again, mr/ms. high horse, what it "seems" like to you is utterly irrelevant. Not because you're a bad person or anything, just because it's not you, and you don't know jack didly about why and what i'm doing.

I don't relly know that i think there's anything after death. if there is, I don't know that it matters, it's not like anything will change betwen now nd when i would normally die.

Suicide assures that the pain will end. there is, of course, a very tiny chance there's some kind of hell to continue the pain, but really, it's not like i wouldn't be going there anyyway.

So yes, suicide does change things. it fixes literally every problem I have, at least in all likelihood.

he people around you will suffer from the financial pains of burying your corpse, they will grieve at your passing, and be guilt driven by your passing.

I don't understand why respond to someone if you're just going to tell them, "Hey, you know your post? The one where you tell us what's wrong and how things are and open up about intimate secrets about yourself and your reasons not to live? Yeah...you're just delusional. That's not really how things are. You're just sick."

Screw off if that's the case. You're assuming that everyone will be oh so sad.

You're wrong.

I state again.: "Everyone will be happier and/or better off once I blow my brains out. Most people, including my loved one and my only friend, will be totally or largely unaffected. I don't matter. I am poison, and they are al better off without me."

And as you move from this world to the next the weight of your actions will follow you.

Um, no, they probably won't. I mean, if there's an afterlife, yeah they might, but really suicide's not going to make me go anywhere I wasn't already going.

You've got an unrealistically negative view of the world

And you're pretentious. Where do you get off deciding that the wise and knowledgable GenereicOscout has the "appropirately realistic view of the world", and that anyone who's view doesn't match up is "too negative"?

My view of the world is based on realism. you my not have the same experiences as me, and so the reality that you observe may be different than mine, and that's totally okay.

But I don't come up to you and say, "Hey, the way you perceive reality because of your experiences and observations is unrealistic." I say "Wow, you have different experiences and I accept that your observations of reality may be different than my observations."

I am realistic. I have observed the things i said above and everone being better off without me as a defining rule of my existence.

Assuming that you know so much about the nature of reality and the world that you can decide, without ever knowing me or what I am or have seen, that my view is "unrealistic" is arrogant.

And I don't believe you really understand what options are available.

*** off. Did you even ask what options I think are available? did you ask which ones I'd tried? No, you didn't.

You just assumed that since I did match up to your idea of "acceptable" and "right" and "fixed" that I must not have tried hard enough.

Screw that.

ECT? Medications? SSRIs? Trycyclic anti-deps? Benzodiazepines? inpatient care? Outpatient treatment? Spiritual counseling? Faith? Philosophical beliefs? medidtation? Mindfulness? Excersise? Diet changes? Sleep care? Support systems? Waiting it out? Sucking it up?

Did I leave out any of the options that I "dont understand are available"? that's not an exhaustive list but i figured it made the point.

Just because someone isn't better does n't mean they haven't tried hard enough.

What condition could you have that the hospital won't save you from? Let's be honest the medication that you've been provided to keep you alive can be provided at an institution of one kind or another. If you really want to live you won't die until you get to retirement age.

Okay, (1) i didn't say i couldn't be kept alive. i said i can't afford meds anymore and a hospital would not provide me any kind of service that would help treat what is my problem. and (2)

If you really want to live you won't die until you get to retirement age.

I really feel like you missed the point of me being suicidal, because obviously i don't want to.

Let's be honest the medication that you've been provided to keep you alive can be provided at an institution of one kind or another.

My medication doesn't physically "keep me alive" you pretentious jerk. It allows me to function. A hospitals' not goign to say "Oh wow you aren't performing at optimal capacity mentally? We'll hook you up."

But of course, that's not good enough for you is it? If my condition won't kill me, it's not serious enough, right?

Also, did it occur to you that not everyone has access to hospitals? or health insurance?

I feel even more alone now than before.

But this whole reply is jsut another example of someone that would have been better off if they had never met me. You will be better off without me existeing too.

Clearly.

I'm sorry.