Get your ass up and do something about it. So you lost your band and your rockstar lifestyle. It's about time you said fuck it and turn your shit around.

Go hike the Appalachian trail or find some adventure where you can go find yourself. Life is not about living some menial life your not happy with. Get your shit rocking and find something you enjoy and persue it.

Age is nothing in this world any more. Start a program for kids with special needs and get them into playing music. There are so many ways to find joy in this world if you say fuck it and try. Worst thing that happens is you fail and end up with the experience of trying something you have never done before.

I believe you can find joy in this life that you have. Now get off your ass and do it.

I was once in your shoes. I was in my 20's and before you know it a felon and then found god and it made my life better. JK no god in my life. But seriously I did fuck my life up and got the life I wanted in my 40s brewing beer and listen to music around like minded folk. There's a come back story in everyone's life. It's time for yours