the VA ruined my life...

I felt the same way man, same exact situation minus the VA fucking up.

I'm on my third time contracting in The Middle East just to make sure I NEVER have to experience that kind of backward bullshit ever again. Struggling with pretending to love stupid jobs back home or climb the corporate ladder, fuck all that. Way past the standard and expectation from that level I need more. Don't need to prove it either my resume and attitude and work ethic speak for themselves.

I'm glad I experienced trying to be something I wasn't, you know...tried for my wife to do things the "American way" apply for a job at home and if not go to school. But I know me better than anyone and I hated and dreaded that entire time. Interview after interview, always going well, never feeling out of place or not skilled enough during rapport with managers and recruiters just to be dicked around and given a magnet and a frisbee afterword and then blown off. It's so irritating and it literally can cause one to plant suicidal thoughts and imagine a life not having to play this stupid pointless game anymore, ESPECIALLY, when you've done the right thing and used integrity and had a good attitude... Just to get shit on and pass up.

I'd rather sacrifice being gone from my wife and Coke March I'll miss out on the first 8 months of her life and being able to help my wife with everything and experience all those moments... Money can't buy that. But then I have to calm down and realize, my wife and child could be in a box or suffering living the past with family or friends who aren't where we are. It's hard to relate to someone who hasn't gone through any of this. Everyone's tied up with super bowl and rap music and life is just great on their Facebooks. Sheesh

Hang in there... I know it's easy for everyone to tell you that and it doesn't hold any weight or change how you feel. Just try to take it a day at a time, communicate with your woman and find things to distract you if you aren't dead tired or busy with two or three jobs.

There is a light somewhere at the end and it's only when it can be seen that you realize you can make it and it wasn't that long of suffering. I have to tell myself that every day.

PM if you need to vent or bullshit about anything. I'm pessimistic and negative as shit most of the time but I'll still listen and help distract you or motivate you if I can.

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