You’ve been on my mind

I think a lot of people look at love in hindsight, and then when it’s too late they finally find the meaning in there life. It starts with one moment, one person, and realizing suffering is worth living for, getting up for and doing better for the agony you may have inflicted in search for meaning and when meaning became doing for me and providing it was peace of mind.The irony is that when you start finding meaning is the same moment your transformations and self love start shining. This suffering is magnetic and bright like a star. I think people realize the implications of spending a lot of late nights and times with someone you love but being lost is the only way we can find ourselves. She was lost but she paved a road for purpose that allowed me to find it easy to smile, glowing and be her shooting star whenever she needs. I’m so glad I was broken and lost because the love transformed. She knew me for who I was and I knew her for what I was and we shared what we thought about one another and in sharing I pray she believes I do see her all the ways I described. I tried to fight. It was a darkness ever expanding like our universe or minds and you decided to see stars one more night, and hope one more night that they shoot far and shoot bright. I sometimes wonder if I’m capable to be loved, and I remember I broke up with my girlfriend at the time and the only reason I didn’t take her back in my life then was because she deserved more and it’s not an excuse. She deserves the best me. She is the best .. my truest love and my best friend. my head was fucked up so bad then and it made sense that she knew me so well that she let me fly and now I’m flying somewhere so unreal and a total fantasy.. one day she’ll be with me, and we’ll take these fantasies and adventures. I’ll probably write about it, and keep a diary for her so she can see it all. I couldn’t help myself, but I only write all this because if the very things that inspired me can inspire you, then you’ll fly in your fantasies too and own it. :)

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