I’ve come to the conclusion that I hate everyone (this is kind of a heated rant, if it’s against guidelines then feel free to take down)

I know you can't imagine it in any scenario but it happened to me. (Trigger warning: CSA, assault, violence) I was about 5/6 years old. The other kid my age was being raped repeatedly (for who knows how long) by their older brother twice their age. I had no idea about that part of it until like 20 years later.

They started repeating the behavior and taking it out on me because I was smaller than them. They forced me to do really disturbing things and would threaten me if I didn't. My relationship with my family was/is terrible so I had nobody to turn to. They were also popular at school and would turn everyone against me and get my abusive parents worked up if I didn't do what they said or refused to come over to their house. A couple times they also beat the shit out of me and tried to suffocate me after they sexually abused me for hours. It wasn't some game or something... it was like they turned into a feral demon and wanted to kill me.

Anyways I feel pretty awkward talking about this still so I'll probably delete this comment in a few hours.

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