I am very sorry for how bad you have been, there are so many sensitive things in what you have told that I have no words left but to tell you that the strength you have had is admirable, with so many shitty people that one finds it hard to believe that there are good people around , but they do exist, and I think the best ones are hard to find. I hope that you will soon find someone who is worth having as a true friend or boyfriend. At least it was for the better that you got rid of those toxic companions. A good place where you can start finding support and love is a church or an evangelical community for example. I don't know what they will be like in your country but in mine when I entered without even knowing me, people would come and ask me how I was, they hugged me and each other a lot, they treated you well even if you didn't believe in God. I'm not telling you to become a Christian but to talk to those who are in that community, they are usually friendly. Maybe your life will change.