This is a very stupid and childish rant I’m sorry but I just spent weeks on one art piece and the art piece before it just for those pieces to be ignored on every social media site I posted them to.

I was told today NOT to use tags, because the algorithm hates hashtags apparently. Can’t afford a coach, too much money. And what is a niche tag on Instagram? The server I posted in was a fire emblem server. I’m told by mutuals not to talk too much, not to talk to little, not to post hashtags, network but don’t be pushy. Like?? Who am I supposed to take notes from?? I talk too much, I lose followers. I talk too little, I lose followers. I don’t know what people are expecting of me. I post art, I lose followers. I don’t post art, I lose followers. I can’t win.

I want to create good art, get better at art, and get numbers. All three. And it’s not as if I choose the niche market, my clients are the ones who commission me, I don’t have time for personal projects, otherwise I’d be drawing more of the mainstream stuff like Genshin. It’s not that I struggle getting clients, but I struggle getting numbers and it’s so frustrating when I see people who are at a similar skill level to me soaring in numbers. Again, I talk too much and I annoy people so they leave. I don’t talk enough so they leave. I’m also extremely introverted, and I get about 20-50 comments a day. How do I keep up with that? I don’t know what a “story” entails. I literally don’t. I try not to show too much of my personality online because I have severe BPD and I’ve been told I’m very off putting because of it whenever I have a breakdown. If it’s as easy as talking about my technique, or what inspired me, will that fix it?

Thank you for the compliment but I’m still confused. I really don’t know what to do. I can’t hire a coach, it’s too much money and I can’t afford it.

/r/venting Thread Parent