I’m supposed to tell you that the best revenge against them is to live your life to the fullest and have a long happy life. And that any such revenge against them would make you a bad person. If I was in a situation where I felt my life was thrown off course due to the selfish and inhumane actions of someone that was within walking distance of my house, and I felt I had nothing to lose, I’m not entirely sure I’d have the strength to not do anything. Though it’s highly likely that doing something would not contribute anything positive to the world or anyone involved

I will say that although the things that happened to you are absolutely horrible and not your fault. It is your responsibility to find ways of coping in a healthy manner. It might be a good idea to seek the help of a mental health professional for these things. Really sorry you had to go through all of this.