Turning 18 this month. I'm probably still a virgin cause sophomore year I stopped being social with new people because of depression and anxiety and now I get homeschooled. The closest I ever got was when this girl wanted me but I had to go on a brief vacation. Then when I came back we made out in my room but she didn't wanna go any further cause we didn't have the time to build up into it. After that she cheated on me with one of my former friends and nothing was ever the same between us. She mentally and emotionally abused me but I felt stuck to her cause she is still the only one who ever gave me a chance.

Since I don't go to school I try to talk to new girls through snapchat but I'm always looked over. Sometimes I think its because we're not talking in person but other times I think it's because I'm a nobody. I wonder if going to an arts college with more like minded people is gonna be any different. I just have to be patient but its so hard feeling emotionally alone.

Phew, felt good to get this out of my system.