I wanna run away and i've got no idea what to do about anything

I did plan it out, all of it, but rn am living on my so called parents' money and i hate it too much, listening to that shit again and again, i can't take it, as i said am currently doing law, the plan was to continue with it and then do a course in criminology, try being a criminologist, either in india or even in a foreign country, my parents will be divorcing each other soon now and i'll be moving with my mother to her father's house, which is no prize at all...

I just got a new laptop, somehow got them to get me a gaming one, i've already heard so much shit about it already tho, i've never once had anything for myself, and i've begged my mom for it because she's much better, but she keeps on making things worse, i used to feel that when i play some great game i could just lose myself for sometime, but now she has troubled me so much too, i just dont wanna anymore either, i wanna do nothing at all, am already struggling with my studies, i am not able to sleep properly, i sleep really late, sometimes i dont, have to force myself to somehow, during which my heart keeps beating like crazy, and these parents, who supposedly love me, whom i've told a hundred of times to please let me be, they dont fucking get it, my father is a lost cause completely, but my mother too, she too just doesnt let me be, they're paying a crazy amount of fees in that college i currently study and keep showing me that am useless even after paying so much money, i wanna be independent but i have no idea what to do at all, i'll need a place to stay too, i wanna run away to another country tbh but thats just not possible, i just dont wanna live this way. I was so enthusiastic for my dream, but now things keep getting worse, i cant live this way.

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