I've lost everything. My father kicked me out tonight my sister took me in since my mom is MIA and didn't answer any calls then turned off her phone. I have a crap job and I'm suppose to be moving with my bf in a few months and if I have no money by then he's going to go without me and then bye bye to that relationship. I'm so close to relapsing and not caring because I know if I do no matter the dose it will more than likely end everything. It's been 6 years of this and every day is worse I don't even remember the last time I felt happiness more than a minute. I cut myself tonight so I'm sure when my bf sees that tomorrow he will brake up with me. I just make everything worse for myself. This isn't me trying to be dramatic or play the pitty card. All I want in life is success but I can't get there when I have zero help. My sister is only letting me stay for the night then she said we can check out shelters in the morning I don't wanna go to another shelter I just want everything to be over.