Your description of how you were from 18-20 sounds very similar to me. I'll definitely have to do some more introspection and try and socially interact with people more often. I'm kind of a shut-in and I've practically been raised on the PC for much of my childhood, which didn't and doesn't help my socialization, for lack of a better term, when I already technically have mild ASD, but it's never too late to change. This is kind of unrelated, but I'm also quite irritable, overweight, and am a bit scared of people and speaking what I think in general/being too passive, stuff I'm also trying to work on. Thank you for giving me some of your thoughts and advice.