Sorry to unload I don’t know if this is the right time or place but I’m feeling so blegh. My partner’s car is in the garage all week so I’ve been driving him to work. The problem arises in that I suffer from general anxiety, and I was hoping that I would be a happy driver but I’m just not, it makes me so so anxious. I can do my drive to work and places I know easily enough, and I am a good/safe driver, but it pains me, and his driver is longer and requires the motorway and it’s gotten to the point where this week I haven’t felt anxious but a total state of stress because of how much work I have, you know when you don’t feel inside of your own body and even when you’re calmer, you don’t feel yourself? It’s gotten better as the week has gone on but yesterday I started crying because I couldn’t get off of a roundabout, and this has been the first week of my holiday, and I’ve been vocal about how I feel like it’s a week wasted and that I’m annoyed but it’s not his fault, but I’m pissed that I’ve felt like this when I should be relaxing. We’ve been together 5 years and he’s really been with me through thick and thin, especially with my anxiety which has created so many barriers, so I can understand why he is at the end of his tether with me for this. Today my windshield started fogging up about 5 mins before the motorway and I started freaking out because it wouldn’t clear with the fans and I was trying to concentrate on the road and he started shouting at me. I understand, he only gets the standard 20 days off, he drives us absolutely everywhere, he’s conveyed me home, taken me to work and back every day for a year when he wasn’t working, he is always supportive and has apologised. He works in a school so I’ve stayed with him for the day and I’ve gotten so much planning done that I might not have if I was at home, but at the same time we’re not getting a break from each other and it’s starting to show, although it’s never been a problem before. I don’t know, it’s just not how I imagined the start of my holidays going, and it’s going to continue into next week, I’m not even looking forward to my weekend.