Hi everyone. I'm hoping that someone can sense me and pick up on anything on why I am going through what I am.

Lately, for the past few days, my mind has been going through and reliving almost every negative aspect of my life. 95% of these, I haven't thought of in 25-30 years and I don't know why they are coming up now.

I have been exploring my spirituality now for just over a year including a little meditation, lots of reading etc. My mind is so jumbled and confused as I find it hard to hold onto any one thought or the ability to process my thoughts to make any clear decisions regarding my future or sometimes even the present.

I am at the point where I feel like giving the spiritual learning a break for now as it seems the deeper I get, the more confused and lost I get.

Okay...enough for now. lol. Sorry for the long post.