On and off again kinda dating post breakup… I really miss my ex.. yea that kind of vent. I moved out my things recently… I didn’t cry when I saw him but broke down HARD after I left his place.

There’s also this concert coming up that we spoke about checking out.. I want to go and wanted to go with him but obviously the latter feels impractical. I still wish we were going together because last year we said that we’d enjoy more shows this summer and now this..

Im not sad because I don’t have someone to go with.. im sad because I want to share these moments with my best friend.. someone I grew to love despite of our differences.

And I tried to make it work, and maybe he did too? I wrote a separate post about this- he didn’t seem empathetic to my boundary around seggs or wanting to commit. I’ve been getting triggered from past toxic experiences, him telling me he wasn’t attracted to me earlier this year… it’s just a lot and I wish we could’ve worked through it