Well. He’s extremely loving. He’s attentive. He takes care of me. And we share the same interests. I know that that seems impossible from what I wrote in my original post, but it’s absolutely true and it’s very confusing. There’s a lot there or I wouldn’t have posted this, I would have just left him. I’m giving myself some time to really think through this situation before making a decision and gain some outside insight potentially because don’t want to be hasty with this. I’d be giving up a lot, but also gaining some peace of mind potentially. He’s not abusive, but he has done some significantly shitty things to me and others. It’s almost like loving a drug addict who’s attempting recovery and has some major missteps but is under everything very loving. It’s much more challenging to navigate than just “he’s an asshole and treats me like garbage and uses me”. There’s an element of mistreatment but I’m not certain it’s malicious.