I'm crying again goddamnit that's like the third time in the last two days.
It fucks with my head. I feel like I'm being gaslit CONSTANTLY I feel like everyone is trying to fuck with my head and I feel like I'm losing my fucking mind.
It just keeps happening where people will say I don't look that bad and I need to only change surface level things but then when getting deeper they finally admit that I'll be fucked forever (my jaw is deformed, if I lose weight it becomes much more obvious) like /u/saturdeity. And I feel like I'm losing my mind and that makes me cry and upset because like my mind is the only thing I have. And it feels like everyone is fucking with it. I can't deal with this but I don't know what else to do.